Jesus told us in Mark 11:24 that whatsoever thing we desire, when we pray, we need to believe that we have received them, and we shall have them. In the first episode, I testified about faith applied in my university admission. Today, I want to testify about a course that I was destined to fail.
Well, there’s actually an accounting course with such code, but I use the “419” in this context to refer to the deceitful nature of the exam and how it played me, setting me on the path of failure. Given the nature of the course and programme, I didn’t feel the need to study my class notes and went ahead studying some other materials which I felt were according to the right standard; but in reality I ended up studying in the dark. Besides, the standard expected from the lecturer was very high so there was no way she would go to her class notes to set exam questions. It had never happened.
On the day of the exam, and about 30minutes to the exam, to be precise, I was made aware of a particular set of objective questions given by the lecturer for revision which I wasn’t aware of earlier. I was reluctant initially, but seeing that it was my best shot compared to being entirely in the dark, I quickly went through it.
The exam started and it was exactly what was in the class notes alongside the set of objective questions that the lecturer brought out. My personal study was only efficient in the objective questions which only accounted for 40%. For the rest, I was totally blank, and there’s no way I could have gotten the whole 40%. In conclusion, the odds of me passing that course were very little. Again, the guilt of not studying my class notes, coupled with the knowledge of my poor performance in the exam all suggested that I deserved to fail.
Confess or Fail
I knew what I needed to do, it was either I confessed positively against the valid contrary (the justification of my failure) or I accepted the failure, which was not necessarily so at the same time, since I had continuous assessment. The reality was that I my exam was over 40 and my continuous assessment (CA) over 20. What was the assurance that I had above 30 in the exam and above 10 in the CA, just enough to give me an E? “Don’t deceive yourself Godsplan” I said to myself, “you better start confessing positively right now or you will fail.” Immediately, I set off and started confessing positively. I even changed the confession to “I have an A in the name of Jesus” to increase my faith. If I didn’t do that, I would remain in the realm of pass or fail. Each time I confessed that, I would laugh at myself within, but I kept on confessing. Then I stopped asking and just started thanking God for the answer to prayers.
I thanked God for an A in the course for two good years, because the result didn’t come out until after two years. You can just imagine! I battled with the voice of failure for two good years and I kept silencing the voice with thanksgiving to God following the answer to my prayers for the same period. I can’t even start telling you all the thoughts that passed through my head for two years, even to the point of advising me to go and beg the lecturer. No matter what, I never let go of my confession (like the frog holding on with his last strength). Please, just try and picture the scenario, it wasn’t funny at all.
It is Done
After two years, the result came out and I had a C. Am I mad that I would be disappointed at not having an A? And am I mad that I won’t glorify God and testify to the world for a course that I was never supposed to pass in the first place? It only took me one or more negative confessions and the acceptance of fate in that situation to fail for good; because even my conscience was telling me to just let it go and come back to do justice to the course. Even I sentenced myself to fail and that was justice; but the grace of God is beyond all human and heavenly laws. His grace is above all mistakes, inadequacies and sins whether intentional or unintentional.
James 1:6-7 says,
“But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord. A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.”
Hold on tight to your confession, understanding the power of the grace of God. Your decree is all you have (Job 22:28), you need to keep silencing the voice of defeat, failure, sin and all forms of negativity with your word of faith.
Cheers and God bless you infinitely!!!